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Monday, May 30, 2011

Warning: Shocking Revelations Inside.

I love Facebook.  Perhaps more than I ought to!  I really do find it interesting to see what my friends are up to and to use it to post pictures for family and friends to enjoy from all over the United States.  Sometimes I think if it wasn't for Facebook that Ben wouldn't ever keep up with his siblings and nothing would ever be planned as far as summer vacations.
But, for every benefit of Facebook there are at least a few down sides!  For instance, Facebook has got to be the number one "thief" of my time.  Especially since I use it for my business I can find a hundred reasons to justify my wasting time!
Recently Satan has used it to stir up some emotions in me that I am dwelling on...
A comment was made by a Facebook friend that I felt disrespected my husband.  It wasn't directed at him or me... but at his profession.  And unless you've missed it I pretty much think that my husband is the "bees knees".  I am incredibly proud of him and what he does for a living.  Now I could get into the ins and outs of why this was so hurtful, but the bottom line is it hurt. 
I'm also a bit of a grudge keeper.  I know, shocking revelations are coming out of this blog!  And my nature (my sin nature) is to keep running through the events and count the offense as many times as possible and come up with as many nasty comments as possible.  I'm also a bit of a debater and I know with all my heart that I could destroy this Facebook friend in a debate.  I think perhaps I come by these traits naturally... as I type this I think I sound just like (enter parent's name that rhymes with Barry) ;)
So with all this going on what do we talk about in Sunday School... that dumb little thing called "forgiveness".  Ugh.  It's one of those impossible things that I know that I have to do and yet... why should I forgive when I can win????  Shocking revelation #3... I lurrrve winning.  But, honestly there is no winning in holding onto grudges.  There's no winning in tearing someone to shreds in an argument.  There is no winning in nasty little comments that I say inside my head (or type out on Facebook and then delete later).  Holding onto this offense doesn't hurt anyone... but me.  And not only that it hurts my relationship with Christ.  You see when I'm wounded, I fight back as protection.  I want to hurt back so that my hurt is covered.  But, that's not how Christ operates.  He says that love covers a multitude of sins. 
And so my prayer is that God will give me the grace, the strength, the maturity and the ability to forgive.

So how about you?  Who do you need the grace, the strength, the maturity and the ability to forgive?